Don’t try to disappear yourself. I hear it so much from spiritual seekers. Actually, Christianity even has a hint of “disappearing” as well because you can try to be a good person, but it’s not until you’re dead that you go to heaven, so you disappeared yourself.
But especially people who are studying Eastern traditions tend to want to disappear themselves, and for good reason. I mean, we feel bad, right? It hurts to be a confused conscious person; you want that to go away.
But not you; you’re there in the center of it. The goal is to be the master of the hurricane.
The master is home. Relax into that. Trust yourself.